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Cutler Ryder was everything I wasn't. He was the hockey star. I was an outcast. He was best friends with my stepbrother, that same stepbrother who hated me. His two parents loved him. My mom was a junkie. My dad barely knew me. Years passed. I got my life together. Cut went onto NHL stardom. Then there was a text. I was drinking. There was a party. Cut was there... I loved Cutler Ryd Cutler Ryder was everything I wasn't. He was the hockey star. I was an outcast. He was best friends with my stepbrother, that same stepbrother who hated me. His two parents loved him. My mom was a junkie. My dad barely knew me. Years passed. I got my life together. Cut went onto NHL stardom. Then there was a text. I was drinking. There was a party. Cut was there... I loved Cutler Ryder since the first moment I saw him. The only problem? He never knew I existed.


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Cutler Ryder was everything I wasn't. He was the hockey star. I was an outcast. He was best friends with my stepbrother, that same stepbrother who hated me. His two parents loved him. My mom was a junkie. My dad barely knew me. Years passed. I got my life together. Cut went onto NHL stardom. Then there was a text. I was drinking. There was a party. Cut was there... I loved Cutler Ryd Cutler Ryder was everything I wasn't. He was the hockey star. I was an outcast. He was best friends with my stepbrother, that same stepbrother who hated me. His two parents loved him. My mom was a junkie. My dad barely knew me. Years passed. I got my life together. Cut went onto NHL stardom. Then there was a text. I was drinking. There was a party. Cut was there... I loved Cutler Ryder since the first moment I saw him. The only problem? He never knew I existed.

30 review for The Not-Outcast

  1. 4 out of 5

    mel ☽

    2.5 stars ✧ ok, ok so the prologue got me HOOKED. Cheyenne (h) was so freaking cute and my inner momma bear naturally came out because she seemed so sweet and innocent and she did not deserve to be treated the way she was treated aaand the fact that she didn't even know she was being treated like shit? by her own father and stepmom??? ugh just felt my soul weep a little. so a little backstory, ⤷ back in highschool, we find out that she has something and she's been misdiagnosed A LOT, her mother die 2.5 stars ✧ ok, ok so the prologue got me HOOKED. Cheyenne (h) was so freaking cute and my inner momma bear naturally came out because she seemed so sweet and innocent and she did not deserve to be treated the way she was treated aaand the fact that she didn't even know she was being treated like shit? by her own father and stepmom??? ugh just felt my soul weep a little. so a little backstory, ⤷ back in highschool, we find out that she has something and she's been misdiagnosed A LOT, her mother died and we don't know why, she moved to her uncle's house because her dad don't want nothing to do with her, she went to college with her dad's money, years go by, she had a crush on her stepbros best friend, Cut (H) who's an NHL player and BAM. the book begins and umm.... ... i almost dnf'ed this (many times by the way) but then half of my brain said: and i was like. alright brain I FUCKING WON'T. i ain't no quitter 😤✊🏼 but then you know it's a bad sign when i was contemplating whether or not i should dnf this for the majority of the book so. anywho, y'all know the drill // SPOILERS AHEAD // so first of all, there was some insta love/lust thing going on right at the beginning from Cut's side. he sees her, turned his inner caveman mode on, basically told everyone to fuck off without saying it, took her home and they slept together 6 times (i know this because they kept repeating this info thank you v much) and... well after that, all the scenes felt like filler and i didn't care about anything because i don't even think they interacted until like 30ish% so then there's me tryna look for the romance, the chemistry and the PASSION *sigh* suddenly i'm a girl doing it with an unskilled frat boy because i felt ✨ nothing ✨ there was no development. the Hs feelings came out of nowhere in the very beginning and i wasn't convinced. in the beginning it was all physical and he wanted to be with her because he felt "something" and she was hot but, again, i wasn't convinced and y'all know i'm a sucker for a good slowburn development. can i say there's more telling > showing? maybe. i can't really tell since romance wasn't the focal point here. but because of this i didn't really feel their connection. ↠ i want to bitch slap the dad, the stepmom, and the stepbrother 😃 as y'all know, they treated Cheyenne like shit just because she was homeless her mother was a junkie. and because of their snobby and small-minded thinking, they looked down on her like they were better than her. ugh people like this, don't you just wanna something happened at the beginning because her mother died and then Cheyenne had to stay with her uncle and not her dad. the whole family drama intrigued me and made me not give up on this book but... it kinda fell flat. there was just so much filler in the middle that, lowkey, i kinda forgot about this plotline even though it's important af. it wasn't satisfying when i finally found out what the fuck is up with the bitchass, crusty ass father. i just thought there would be a confrontation between him and Cheyenne where Cheyenne kills him with words but i guess not. ↠ what i DID like ✧ girl friendship was cute with Sasha, Melanie and Cheyenne. they had each other's backs and they were each others partners in crime. literally. ✧ also, the whole Sasha and Chad thing, yeah, i was into that more because it had more angst and i was surprised she ended up with the other dude. but you know what good for her since Chad's a dick. i just wish i saw more development between Sasha and Hendrix. ✧ and Hunter!!!! the Koala Brother!! aka the only brother we stan. oh my god him and Cheyenne's relationship was so wholesome there's no OW/OM drama and the endearment "my girl" was used ONLY for the h so all is well. _______________________________ anyways, im pretty sure Chad will get his own book... maybe?? ahh i don't know. he was barely mentioned in the epilogue and we know he's trying to be better and y'all i'm kinda intrigued. i don't like him and ummmm him doing what he did with Cheyenne's mother is ummmm... but i do love bad-turned-good characters because duh ✨ complexity ✨ even though i didn't feel connected with any of the characters, romance and the story overall, i still really liked Cheyenne! she was my favorite part in this entire book. ugggghhh again, im sorry but i was just so bored so i skimmed the majority of the book. i guess i was expecting more since the tropes are *chefs kiss* but eehhh.

  2. 4 out of 5

    Ꮗ€♫◗☿ ❤️ ilikebooksbest.com ❤️

    I love that the heroine has mental health issues! The following ratings are out of 5: Romance: 💋💋💋💋💋 Heat/Steam: 🔥🔥🔥🔥🔥 Story/Plot: 👏👏👏👏👏 World building: 🌎🌏🌍🌎🌏 Character development: 🥸😯😎☺️🥰 The setting: Kansas City The heroine: Cheyenne – her mother was a Junkie from before she was born including while she was pregnant. Cheyenne has some sort of hyperactivity disorder where she can’t focus on certain things because she sees everything that is going on around her. Like there is too much stimulation. She n I love that the heroine has mental health issues! The following ratings are out of 5: Romance: 💋💋💋💋💋 Heat/Steam: 🔥🔥🔥🔥🔥 Story/Plot: 👏👏👏👏👏 World building: 🌎🌏🌍🌎🌏 Character development: 🥸😯😎☺️🥰 The setting: Kansas City The heroine: Cheyenne – her mother was a Junkie from before she was born including while she was pregnant. Cheyenne has some sort of hyperactivity disorder where she can’t focus on certain things because she sees everything that is going on around her. Like there is too much stimulation. She now takes medication for it but without the meds she has trouble reading social cues, she has anxiety attacks and basically breaks down. However, with the meds she is smart enough to graduate college in three years. The Hero: Cutler “Cut” Ryder - he has been a Hockey star since high school and now is with the NHL. He never knew Cheyenne in High school even though his best friend Chad was her step-brother. The Love Story: I liked the fact that Cut pretty much fell for Cheyenne the first time he truly sees her. Though he never really noticed her in high school, he sees her now and wants to know her. He is a great guy, much better than his friend Chad. I like that Tijan is having main characters that are real. So many people have to take medications for mental problems in real life, whether it be anxiety disorders, depression, attention deficit disorder, or something else, so I really like the fact that Cheyenne is not perfect but just wants to feel love like everybody else. Tijan did a fantastic job of explaining how it felt to be Cheyenne. I loved the descriptions of what she was feeling at times. It made me feel for this girl and what she goes through. My kids had attention deficit disorder and so this really hit home with me. I remember a teacher once said to me that my son looked like he was never paying attention in class, but then when it came time for tests he did well. I remember thinking, so what is the problem then? But this book makes me see why it was hard for him to pay attention to one thing. Like Cheyenne. I heard the yelling, then a wave of everything else hit me. And it hit me hard. The smells of the club rose up swiftly. The techno music, the hard bass, the neon lights flashing flooded me. Sweat. Grime. Beer. Perfume. Cologne. And other smells that I didn’t want to identify. It was jarring, and I sucked in my breath, remembering to fortify my walls. The other things I really loved about this book were Cheyenne’s relationship with her younger brother Hunter, and the fact that Cut was such a great guy. He is unafraid and so supportive. The very best kind of book boyfriend. This was definitely one of Tijan’s best books ever! I voluntarily read & reviewed an advanced copy of this book. All thoughts & opinions are my own. Blog|Goodreads|Facebook|Instagram|Twitter|BookBub

  3. 5 out of 5

    ❥ KAT ❥ Kitty Kats Crazy About Books

    MY REVIEW AND OTHERS: can also be found on my blog: ➽ KITTY KATS CRAZY ABOUT BOOKS THE NOT-OUTCAST Is a full length sports, contemporary romance novel by Tijan. Spoken in 'Dual Perspectives.' Dude this book was dope!! I have NEVER read a book like this, the beginning our heroines inner thoughts were messy and all over the place, and I'm not going to lie I did question if the author had been drinking 🙈, I wasn't sure what the hell I was getting myself into, BUT guys it makes sense MY REVIEW AND OTHERS: can also be found on my blog: ➽ KITTY KATS CRAZY ABOUT BOOKS THE NOT-OUTCAST Is a full length sports, contemporary romance novel by Tijan. Spoken in 'Dual Perspectives.' Dude this book was dope!! I have NEVER read a book like this, the beginning our heroines inner thoughts were messy and all over the place, and I'm not going to lie I did question if the author had been drinking 🙈, I wasn't sure what the hell I was getting myself into, BUT guys it makes sense the further you go in, seriously this book was just the bomb!! I've never encountered a heroine like her, I wanted to crawl in the book and just hug the fuck out of her. This was just so raw, I cried, I laughed, I swooned I fell in love with this book completely. What makes me love this author so much is her ability to make me love her characters she creates, and she always goes above and beyond to bring us readers unique reads, each and every time. Our heroine has some mental health issues which I think make her larger than life and so easy to relate to, over any other character I've come across, her inner thoughts are messy and jumbled, and other times outright confusing, but that just makes her more realistic. Our heroine Cheyenne hasn't had the easiest of lives, raised by a junkie mother who partook whilst pregnant has had a life long lasting impact on Cheyenne who is a by product of the substances her mother took, due to this Cheyenne has been diagnosed with hyperactivity disorder, in easy lay terms she struggles to focus on one subject at a time, if someone is talking to her, she'll struggle to connect, all the background noises, smells become center stage. Everything is off balance creating too much stimulation all at once. A little taste of the struggle Cheyenne goes through: I heard the yelling, then a wave of everything else hit me. And it hit me hard. The smells of the club rose up swiftly. The techno music, the hard bass, the neon lights flashing flooded me. Sweat. Grime. Beer. Perfume. Cologne. And other smells that I didn’t want to identify. It was jarring, and I sucked in my breath, remembering to fortify my walls. You guys are going to love our hero, Cutler aka Cut Ryder, his life surrounds hockey, he lives and breathes hockey, even back in his college years when he was a rising star in Highschool until he made it into the NHL. He never knew or had encountered Cheyenne during his college days, their paths only crossed once briefly, with a hey and that was it, he never knew how closely she was connected to his best friend Chad, even though Chad was her step-brother. But when he sees her for the first time in their twenties at a gathering, all bets are off, his sole focus is making her his. A thought provoking, slow burn romance which wrung out all the feels, relatable characters, and amazing side characters which made for such a compelling beautiful read.

  4. 5 out of 5

    Wendy

    I am such a huge fan of Tijan and her writing style. It almost always works for me, and I can gladly say this was also the case with this new book. I figured I was in for another "sports-themed", YA/NA book, which was fine by me, because it is one of my favorite tropes... but I was so wrong.  This was so much more than that, and the reason for this was all Cheyenne !! I loved the fact that she was different than everyone else. I loved reading about her way of thinking and getting to be inside her I am such a huge fan of Tijan and her writing style. It almost always works for me, and I can gladly say this was also the case with this new book. I figured I was in for another "sports-themed", YA/NA book, which was fine by me, because it is one of my favorite tropes... but I was so wrong.  This was so much more than that, and the reason for this was all Cheyenne !! I loved the fact that she was different than everyone else. I loved reading about her way of thinking and getting to be inside her head. What I loved most was how Cutler loved her and how he never ever judged her for her behavior or her way of thinking... He loved all that made her HER... and that is how it should be. That is what true love is all about!! Now me gushing about the main characters doesn't mean that there aren't some people I would love to kick in the ass. Man.. people can be cruel and it made me so sad at times. Thankfully Cheyenne had a posse of real friends and those chicks were wicked cool. I really hope there will be a book about them soon.  I speedread through this book because I needed to know what was gonna happen next. I think now that I am done and I found my closure, I will do it all again... only slowly this time ;)  So happy that Tijan did it again... keep them coming, please!!!  An ARC was provided to in exchange for an honest review Follow Me On: Facebook  | Twitter | Instagram | Blog

  5. 5 out of 5

    ❤️ Nanda ❤️

    🏒🏒🏒.5 hockey stars. I'll be honest here and say that I was thinking about not post this review. Maybe just a small one, to fill pros and cons. But that's not who I am. I need to talk! Everyone that can take only a minute to look into my shelves, will know that I absolutely LOVE Tijan's books. Almost every single one of them. This is my first exception and I feel bad about it, because maybe it's me? I don't know, since everyone seems to be loving. So this is probably my rants and unpopular o 🏒🏒🏒.5 hockey stars. I'll be honest here and say that I was thinking about not post this review. Maybe just a small one, to fill pros and cons. But that's not who I am. I need to talk! Everyone that can take only a minute to look into my shelves, will know that I absolutely LOVE Tijan's books. Almost every single one of them. This is my first exception and I feel bad about it, because maybe it's me? I don't know, since everyone seems to be loving. So this is probably my rants and unpopular opinion... you can stop reading right now and let me vent alone. Okay? Deal. ▪️▫️▪️▫️▪️▫️▪️▫️▪️▫️▪️▫️▪️▫️▪️▫️ I'll start by saying that holy fuck! 10% in the book and Cut's reaction after seen Cheyenne for the first time was EVERYTHING! My expectations at this point where sky level. Not the drooling girl in this one (at least not at first)... We got a front row seat for the hot drooling guy! But that's when my first high ended. I have to say that I was disappointed with a few things... And it last a lot more then my happy first 15% of the book. Their first kiss, their first night together, their first mind-blowing six-times sex... It was all FADED! Meaning that they're not in the book, and I really don't understand why! It happened in less than 15% into the book, and it would be epic. But then, he carried her out for the bedroom and that's the end of the chapter! Next chapter in, with her already waking up in the morning after, and running away from him. I was like 😧😨😨😢😠😤. Not what I was expecting. They haven't kissed... not even when she decided that she would try to be with him at 50% in. They sleep together (literally) like an old couple for a few days before they kiss again. I was really feeling disconnected from both of them at that point. I mean... Where's all that instant chemistry and pull from the first 10% of the book? I'm feeling ridiculous complaining about kisses and faded sex scene, but this isn't something that I'm used to in Tijan's books, and although I really loved the plot and Cut. I couldn't really connect with Cheyenne and her mental state or them as a couple, or even how things where told. She was hot and cold, crazy and at peace, having panic attacks because of noises and stimulus, and then being okay at a full hockey game? How so? I won't say that I hate them because that isn't true either. At some point, my heart started to open for them... I started to accept that this book wasn't really focused on a couple relationship, and I started to get her and her antics and their old couple relationship. Also the story should be about Cut and Cheyenne, but the whole book is focused in multiple couples, and their get together, so the central story got a little lost at times, with so many changes and leads, that I wasn't full invested anymore. The small amount of steam was an issue to me, because at this point, I'm probably sex addicted, so I have to be in the mood to read something more deep, in an internal and mental level. It's more of a Cheyenne life's story, and I have to say that, girllllll... The things that she went through? Are things that can drive anyone crazy, and still she's all about love, positive thoughts and kindness. She's really altruist. I loved her evolution! She turned all the bad things that happened to her, into something better for the ones in the same situation. Her mission was noble and I love it. Lots of hockey games and terms. Lots of Cut doing his thing, while Cheyenne did her things. Lots of family (Non-family) drama. Lots of friends moments between Cheyenne and her girls, Sasha and Melanie.... And I have to say that their moments kinda of save me a few times. I loved the girls, their friendship, their support, their ridiculous missions and all that. The hallmark epilogue was cute and I enjoyed how everyone's story ended. So it's a 3.5 stars from me. I'll probably read again at some point... And regret this review.... All because I don't think that I was in the right place to fully enjoy it this time. Also I'm here for Momma Alice! She's the best! ARC Reviewer

  6. 4 out of 5

    Drey

    4 Stars! “Please don’t love me and then throw me away.” This is the most emotional and enlightening book I've read by Tijan, so far. I'm wondering if this book is a rom-com or a tearjerker, I think both? Nevertheless, I enjoyed the book and I adored the hero and heroine. The main problem of the story was not between Cheyenne and Cut's feelings to each other (exception: her little insecurities). The development of the story and the characters is good, I just didn't like the author's writing in 4 Stars! “Please don’t love me and then throw me away.” This is the most emotional and enlightening book I've read by Tijan, so far. I'm wondering if this book is a rom-com or a tearjerker, I think both? Nevertheless, I enjoyed the book and I adored the hero and heroine. The main problem of the story was not between Cheyenne and Cut's feelings to each other (exception: her little insecurities). The development of the story and the characters is good, I just didn't like the author's writing in Cheyenne's POV, it was a bit hard to connect with her because of that, but I enjoyed the story nonetheless.

  7. 4 out of 5

    Corina

    Can I just say that December is already my FAVORITE MONTH of the year, but getting a new Tijan is like the icing on the cake!!! I can't wait for this one to land on my kindle!!!! REVIEW: Tijan has always been one of my favorite contemporary romance authors. I love her writing, her heroes and heroines, and the way she tells unputdownable stories. Lucky me, I had a day off today, so I was able to read it in one sitting. This book reminded me a lot of Teardrop Shot. It was much deeper, and focused on Can I just say that December is already my FAVORITE MONTH of the year, but getting a new Tijan is like the icing on the cake!!! I can't wait for this one to land on my kindle!!!! REVIEW: Tijan has always been one of my favorite contemporary romance authors. I love her writing, her heroes and heroines, and the way she tells unputdownable stories. Lucky me, I had a day off today, so I was able to read it in one sitting. This book reminded me a lot of Teardrop Shot. It was much deeper, and focused on a topic that is not often written about in romance novels. Also I'm a big fan of sports romances, so no surprise there that I was hooked. I love that the author is spreading her wings. Writing stories that stand out, wow, and are some of my most highly anticipated novels of the year. So, if you are a sports romance fan, and if you want to read a novel that's DIFFERENT, you need to grab this book. As I said before, the book hooked me from the beginning. And the first half of the book was easily a 5 star for me, only when the second half dragged a little did I end up giving it 4 stars. ___________________________________ Find more reviews and book recommendations on my blog Follow me on Bookstagram

  8. 4 out of 5

    Sentranced Jem

    Everytime I feel like I know what I’m getting myself into yet Tijan always surprises me. Let’s get one thing straight…Tijan’s characters are always unique. I have come to expect that from her but she always knocks it out of the park. And because these characters are so unique and different it takes a while for me to fall in love with them but once you get engrossed in the storyline, you’ll be shocked by how invested you get with her books. Cheyenne is one of a kind. I have never read a bo Everytime I feel like I know what I’m getting myself into yet Tijan always surprises me. Let’s get one thing straight…Tijan’s characters are always unique. I have come to expect that from her but she always knocks it out of the park. And because these characters are so unique and different it takes a while for me to fall in love with them but once you get engrossed in the storyline, you’ll be shocked by how invested you get with her books. Cheyenne is one of a kind. I have never read a book with a character like Cheyenne. She is complicated. She is unique. And as I write this, I can honestly say that she will definitely hold a special place in my heart. It took me a while to ‘get’ Cheyenne..I won’t pretend to truly understand her struggles ..for me, it felt chaotic, difficult and overwhelming but even before the halfway mark, I knew she was going to ingrain her mark because I knew that I LOVED this character. She is AMAZING. She is loyal, BRAVE, kind hearted, STRONG and I am in awe of her constant resilience. The Not-Outcast by Tijan is without a doubt a sports romance and we are introduced to yet another AWESOME hero, Cutler Ryder aka Cut. I feel like a broken record once again but Tijan writes amazing characters. Cut is patient, understanding, loyal,so caring yet an alpha male through and through. Don’t even get me started on Tijan’s secondary characters. I LOVE them! I LOVE The Tomcats ❤️ My month is never complete without reading at least one book by Tijan. Some are rereads and when the occasional new releases pops up..I feel like I have made it on Santa’s nice list hahaha The Not-Outcast is a beautiful book. For me, it felt real and is without a doubt inspiring. I truly hope you guys give this book a chance.

  9. 4 out of 5

    Bhavya Marya

    I hadn’t known anything other than the cold until the first time he touched me. You know a book is good when you have assignments due and you spent half the day reading it. I loved a lot of things in this book. Firstly, the way Tijan wrote Cheyenne’s POV was amazing. I can honestly relate to Cheyenne in some small way so it was nice reading her POV. Cheyenne is a very different character and that’s what I love about Tijan. Her characters are always unique even if it’s in a small way. Secondly, I hadn’t known anything other than the cold until the first time he touched me. You know a book is good when you have assignments due and you spent half the day reading it. I loved a lot of things in this book. Firstly, the way Tijan wrote Cheyenne’s POV was amazing. I can honestly relate to Cheyenne in some small way so it was nice reading her POV. Cheyenne is a very different character and that’s what I love about Tijan. Her characters are always unique even if it’s in a small way. Secondly, the TOMCATS. They were so cool. I loved all the side characters’ stories. I honestly was emotionally invested in their stories too. I loved how Melanie and Sasha didn’t judge Cheyenne for anything and understood what she was going through. Thirdly, Cut and Cheyenne’s first meeting was BOOM ! It was explosive. He was gone for her literally the second he saw her at that party. After that, his only goal was to make her his girlfriend. I also loved how he was sympathetic and helpful to her when she needed him and held onto her even when she ran. In my opinion, this is a very different book than what Tijan normally writes. And I loved every second of it.

  10. 4 out of 5

    Michelle Claypot_Reads

    Cheyenne and Cut’s story is so original and complex I was emotionally invested from the very first page. It’s a brave story that steps outside the usual romance parameters and explores very real world issues in a beautifully respectful way. I cried so hard in this story one minute then found myself genuinely LOLing the next. Tijan painted such a vivid picture of Cheyenne’s struggles and her strength that she’s cemented herself as one of my favourite heroines of all time. And Cut, well he’s exact Cheyenne and Cut’s story is so original and complex I was emotionally invested from the very first page. It’s a brave story that steps outside the usual romance parameters and explores very real world issues in a beautifully respectful way. I cried so hard in this story one minute then found myself genuinely LOLing the next. Tijan painted such a vivid picture of Cheyenne’s struggles and her strength that she’s cemented herself as one of my favourite heroines of all time. And Cut, well he’s exactly what I need I my hero. Major crush on him! This one will be in my Top 10 for 2020 - absolutely brilliant.

  11. 5 out of 5

    Sabrina

    So maybe I got too excited for this story and I had a lot of expectations going in. Example A of why I try not to read excerpts. But this book felt like such a let down and I was honestly not ready to feel that way about a Tijan book after reading so many amazing stories from her.  Just to get it out of the way, I have to say one of my biggest annoyances with this book was Cheyenne's mental health. The prologue was all over the place because her mind just wasn't with it. Then we're told that they So maybe I got too excited for this story and I had a lot of expectations going in. Example A of why I try not to read excerpts. But this book felt like such a let down and I was honestly not ready to feel that way about a Tijan book after reading so many amazing stories from her.  Just to get it out of the way, I have to say one of my biggest annoyances with this book was Cheyenne's mental health. The prologue was all over the place because her mind just wasn't with it. Then we're told that they finally diagnosed her and got her on medication and we fast forward a year, then a few more. But wait, what was she diagnosed with? It's never said, and I did read the author's explanation for why she didn't put the diagnosis in the book but personally I don't understand. Because it was brought up SO much and said in a way that made it feel like a secret or a mystery that I was missing. So then my focus would be on trying to figure out what I wasn't understanding instead of the story.  That might not have been as big of an issue but on top of all of that the story overall felt very choppy and at times felt like there wasn't a clear direction with it. We had Cheyenne and Cut's romance, Cheyenne's family drama with her brother Chad, Chad's semi-relationship with Cheyenne's friend, Cut and Chad's friendship issues, and probably more that I can't remember right now. It was all so very much and quite frankly hurt my brain trying to follow along with it.  There were also times that my hopes would, again, get up and I was ready for some angst to blow in and make me a little more interested in the story. But then the angst would never happen and I would be let down yet again. And I don't think it was just me looking a little too hard for something to like about this book, it felt like complete scenes were forgotten about before we got any real aftermath of them. As in Cut finding out something about Cheyenne and seeming upset and I would think that there's going to be some big discussion or maybe fight that happens but nope, next scene is them getting together as if Cut never had doubts?  With everything going on it was almost impossible for me to connect to any of the many characters and by the end I felt like there wasn't even a connection with Cheyenne and Cut. I will definitely be reading Tijan in the future and this book didn't put me off of her at all but this was definitely not a favorite of mine and bummed me out.  ARC kindly provided in exchange for an honest review.

  12. 5 out of 5

    niteskycs

    2 stars sooooo i really wanted to like this book. i really really did. like we have a female character with a mental disorder and a pro hockey player male character with a little bit of past history. the premise is great but the execution ... i just feel ??? cutler and cheyenne had a major case of insta-love at second sight lol. like he just sees her a party and BOOM he knows they’re meant to be together and in love. on top of that, i did not find cheyenne’s friend group cute or endearing they w 2 stars sooooo i really wanted to like this book. i really really did. like we have a female character with a mental disorder and a pro hockey player male character with a little bit of past history. the premise is great but the execution ... i just feel ??? cutler and cheyenne had a major case of insta-love at second sight lol. like he just sees her a party and BOOM he knows they’re meant to be together and in love. on top of that, i did not find cheyenne’s friend group cute or endearing they were honestly over the top and unbearable like there was literally a “guys wanted us, girls hated us” line ... throwback to every y/n wattpad 2012 book ever. BUT ... the storyline revolving around cheyenne’s family and step-family really had me emotionally involved and while i found myself skimming the romance i was pretty invested in the family drama. chey’s relationship with her younger half-brother is truly sweet and my favourite part of the book. i was really hoping for something along the lines of enemies because that’s one of my favourite books but this was not even in the same realm. but this could just be a case of its me not you because plenty of people have enjoyed the not-outcast so it might just be my personal preference. here’s to hoping the next tijan book is more to my tastes because, again, enemies is truly an excellent book. - the synopsis of this book gives me major "enemies" vibes and that's by far my favourite tijan book as well as one of my favourite sports romances in general so can't wait!

  13. 5 out of 5

    Jamie

    This review has been hidden because it contains spoilers. To view it, click here. DNF @ 71% This was one of the most boring books I’ve ever read and I could not make myself finish it. In my opinion, I felt absolutely zero connection between the h and H, there were no sex scenes except for on extremely small non descriptive scene where he fingers her, and I was so confused I didn’t understand what was happening in the book half the time. Some people might like it, maybe I just don’t vibe with Tijan’s writing I don’t know. All I know was this was literally so boring to me I didn DNF @ 71% This was one of the most boring books I’ve ever read and I could not make myself finish it. In my opinion, I felt absolutely zero connection between the h and H, there were no sex scenes except for on extremely small non descriptive scene where he fingers her, and I was so confused I didn’t understand what was happening in the book half the time. Some people might like it, maybe I just don’t vibe with Tijan’s writing I don’t know. All I know was this was literally so boring to me I didn’t feel like there were any cute scenes between the h and H still at 71%. In case anyone was wondering, at least to the part I got to, the book is safe. H isn’t a manwhore and doesn’t do one night stands. I also believe he was celibate since he saw her again. They’re separated for like five weeks, but in that time we’re given like a sentence per week from him for the time that they’re separated and the sentences were pretty much about her. So I’d say it’s safe to assume he’s celibate after seeing her again

  14. 4 out of 5

    Mahima

    DNF (60%) This book literally had one of the best starting I've read. My emotions were so riled up that I couldn't wait to come to the ending but as the story progressed some things started to sound stupid.... Like why Cut lied about knowing Deek in the first place? Why for so long Chad was shown as a negative person. He didn't even know about his mystery half sister and he literally avoided her so badly!! There were so many such loopholes. I thought of ignoring them but at a point I couldn't read a DNF (60%) This book literally had one of the best starting I've read. My emotions were so riled up that I couldn't wait to come to the ending but as the story progressed some things started to sound stupid.... Like why Cut lied about knowing Deek in the first place? Why for so long Chad was shown as a negative person. He didn't even know about his mystery half sister and he literally avoided her so badly!! There were so many such loopholes. I thought of ignoring them but at a point I couldn't read any further....like the desire to read it anymore ended. I FEEL BETRAYED!! I expected ALOT!!

  15. 5 out of 5

    Jessica Alcazar

    This was ... I mean ... HOLY BALLS ... WoW I’ve often said that Tijan has a special way of delivering a story with flawed characters without their flaws weighing the story down, and MAN, did she deliver once again with this book. There is barely anything about this book that you will know when you read the synopsis, but the minute you begin to read, it’s a magic show because Cheyenne and Cutler are magic. There is no wow factor to their story because it was all wow. However, I will say this, if you This was ... I mean ... HOLY BALLS ... WoW I’ve often said that Tijan has a special way of delivering a story with flawed characters without their flaws weighing the story down, and MAN, did she deliver once again with this book. There is barely anything about this book that you will know when you read the synopsis, but the minute you begin to read, it’s a magic show because Cheyenne and Cutler are magic. There is no wow factor to their story because it was all wow. However, I will say this, if you do not know Tijan and her style, this book might just weird you out. Tijan is an author you roll with. She does not fit into any mold. Her voice and style are uniquely hers. If I’m being honest, I honestly think you either love her or hate her and there is no in between. She’s not an in between author. Because of this, liking her books, or not, can be tricky. It’s because of this that I caution first time readers. This may not be the book you want to start out with. You see, Cheyenne, our heroine, suffers from paranoid personality disorder. It’s not actually labeled in the story, but it’s pretty clear to me her circumstances point to that. And because she’s one of the leads and the majority of the book is in her POV, one might think ”what in the heck is even happening right now?” thru most of the story and if you try and focus too much or try to make sense on it all, you’ll get lose the story all together. Basically, you have to let the crazy happen and you have to flow with it because if you don’t, you’ll miss the most beautiful story of two people destined to be ❤❤❤ If you think you're ready for this ride, #oneclick away! Amazon:https://amzn.to/2KJ1q2S Amazon Worldwide: http://mybook.to/TheNotOutcast Amazon Paperback: https://amzn.to/3lmAgeM

  16. 4 out of 5

    Jan

    DNF Father forgive me for I have sinned. I lost count of how many times I swore I wouldn't read Tijan anymore. DNF Father forgive me for I have sinned. I lost count of how many times I swore I wouldn't read Tijan anymore.

  17. 5 out of 5

    Kerrie Campbell

    OMG! Seriously? I don't think cut could get any better! I went through every emotion with this book. Cheyenne was one amazing character i loved her immediately. Her story and her life was and is not easy and she has loved cut for so long. Then finally cut sees her and he is EVERYTHING. THE.FREAKING.BEST.EVER! There was not a dull moment at all between cheyenne's girls and cut's fantasticness to cheyenne herself the story was just the best. I loved it, just another fantastic book by tijan. 5+++ OMG! Seriously? I don't think cut could get any better! I went through every emotion with this book. Cheyenne was one amazing character i loved her immediately. Her story and her life was and is not easy and she has loved cut for so long. Then finally cut sees her and he is EVERYTHING. THE.FREAKING.BEST.EVER! There was not a dull moment at all between cheyenne's girls and cut's fantasticness to cheyenne herself the story was just the best. I loved it, just another fantastic book by tijan. 5+++

  18. 5 out of 5

    Snow

    it's Tijan *drops mic* I could just leave the words above as a permanent mark for all future Tijan's books....cause damn, just damn...and wow. It's Tijan... The way she writes is somewhere between the masked poetry and mystic reality and her words always reach the deep end in me... So, this story is unique in a way that portrays a serious health condition, and an every day struggle to deal. It's real, it's hard, it's raw, and the beauty of it, it's so humanly vulnerable and palpable and believable... it's Tijan *drops mic* I could just leave the words above as a permanent mark for all future Tijan's books....cause damn, just damn...and wow. It's Tijan... The way she writes is somewhere between the masked poetry and mystic reality and her words always reach the deep end in me... So, this story is unique in a way that portrays a serious health condition, and an every day struggle to deal. It's real, it's hard, it's raw, and the beauty of it, it's so humanly vulnerable and palpable and believable... I fell in love with the main characters, the inner strength of the heroine, Cheyenne, is remarkable and applaud worthy, she's a pillar of uniqueness and owning her condition on an every day basis, paving her way towards happiness, cause all she ever wanted was to be LOVED. damn, the situation she was placed in while as a child, and a teen, broke my heart over and over again...BUT then it simply all was set in light when the right person stepped in for her. *enters Cutter Ryder aka Cut* And damn, that right there was beautiful. From that moment on, everything just slowly set in its rightful place. As it was meant to be. warm-heartedly beautiful, this beautiful, good person saw more than the superficial thing, he saw deeper and through all the wrongful and misplaced regards some people had towards Cheyenne, and the way he stood by her was simply the right thing to be, to own, to live by. He helped with her insecurities over her condition, he was there when her fears ruled over, he was there to calm the storm... Every day is a struggle there were good times and there were bad, but the good overshadowed the bad. The truth is, it doesn't matter. Whatever struggles a person has, going forward, what is imperative is that they have love and support... And that is the premise of this beautiful story of dealing with a severe health condition, dealing with the circumstances life had thrown at you, it's about acceptance and acknowledging your own faults and coping with them, owning them, loving yourself first and most ...and then it's just the matter of a significant one tiny moment when the universe aligns the right path to bring just the right person to come along, the one person that matters, the one person that makes it worth the struggle...any struggle, makes it for fighting for and against all odds and obstacles in life. That I loved the book is simply an understatement. in addition to the above...these lyrics...are just perfect Nickleback: Gotta be somebody This time, I wonder what it feels like To find the one in this life, the one we all dream of But dreams just aren't enough So I'll be waiting for the real thing, I'll know it by the feeling The moment when we're meeting, will play out like a scene Straight off the silver screen So I'll be holding my breath, right up 'til the end Until that moment when, I find the one that I'll spend forever with Cause nobody wants to be the last one there Cause everyone wants to feel like someone cares Someone to love with my life in their hands There's gotta be somebody for me like that Cause nobody wants to go it on their own And everyone wants to know they're not alone There's somebody else that feels the same somewhere There's gotta be somebody for me out there Tonight, out on the street, out in the moonlight And dammit this feels too right, it's just like de ja vu Me standing here with you So I'll be holding my breath, could this be the end? Is it that moment when, I find the one that I'll spend forever with Cause nobody wants to be the last one there Cause everyone wants to feel like someone cares Someone to love with my life in their hands There's gotta be somebody for me like that Cause nobody wants to go it on their own And everyone wants to know they're not alone There's somebody else that feels the same somewhere There's gotta be somebody for me out there You can't give up, (when you're looking for) a diamond in the rough (Cause you never know) When it shows up, (make sure you're holding on) Cause it could be the one, the one you're waiting on Cause nobody wants to be the last one there And everyone wants to feel like someone cares Someone to love with my life in their hands There's gotta be somebody for me, oh Nobody wants to go it on their own And everyone wants to know they're not alone There's somebody else that feels the same somewhere There's gotta be somebody for me out there Nobody wants to be the last one there Cause everyone wants to feel like someone cares There's somebody else that feels the same somewhere There's gotta be somebody for me out there.

  19. 5 out of 5

    ✨ Lucy ✨

    “I love you because you have every reason to be angry at the world , and you’re not.You wake up smiling and you stay smiling . You’d choose laughter over anything , all day and every day” WOW JUST WOW! This story was definitely something else. Sweet , sexy , funny and mind-blowing all at the same time. I loved it . It was definitely a page-turner book, I couldn’t put it down for a second. This story was different then the other I’ve read before. It wasn’t the usual hockey romance , but something enti “I love you because you have every reason to be angry at the world , and you’re not.You wake up smiling and you stay smiling . You’d choose laughter over anything , all day and every day” WOW JUST WOW! This story was definitely something else. Sweet , sexy , funny and mind-blowing all at the same time. I loved it . It was definitely a page-turner book, I couldn’t put it down for a second. This story was different then the other I’ve read before. It wasn’t the usual hockey romance , but something entirely different. The main focus of this one was mental health issues , a very delicate thematic . I loved how it was perfectly explained in this story. Reading it , I felt like I was experimenting the same things Cheyenne was going through . The author used a language and a way of writing that really made me understand how her brain was thinking . Sometimes I felt the need to put it down because it was so much, and It made me really realize what is really like for a person to live with that kind of issue . I loved Cheyenne strength , courage and kindness towards everyone else even if that person was the worst human being ever (like her father or step-brother ). "You open your arms, your heart, and you let people see you. So many people hide but you don’t." And let’s talk about Cut , he was just perfect. An Alpha who had finally found what he was looking for . It was really love at first sight. His kindness and loving actions toward Cheyenne really melted my heart. He wanted her for who she was , no matter what , no matter her mental issues . He just couldn’t lose her. And the strong friendship between Cheyenne and her friends was terrific , I absolutely loved it . It was so strong and beautiful to read about. As strong as the relationship with Hunter , the brother she was denied to see . And that epilogue was just too perfect . In the end everything went how it was supposed to , and even more. I gave it 4 stars.⭐️⭐️⭐️⭐️ I hope you’ll enjoy it like I did! Enjoy! *ARC IN EXCHANGE FOR AN HONEST REVIEW*

  20. 4 out of 5

    Pavlina Read more sleep less blog

    4 STARS "People didn't like what they couldn't understand. It scared them. They couldn't understand me." This is another sweet,sexy and fun read.I really liked this story, even though it wasn't as good as her other books I read, I still enjoyed it!The characters of this book were amazing . I loved Cheyenne very much, she was amazing. Cutler was hot and so swoon worthy!Together they were so great.      4 STARS "People didn't like what they couldn't understand. It scared them. They couldn't understand me." This is another sweet,sexy and fun read.I really liked this story, even though it wasn't as good as her other books I read, I still enjoyed it!The characters of this book were amazing . I loved Cheyenne very much, she was amazing. Cutler was hot and so swoon worthy!Together they were so great.     

  21. 4 out of 5

    Lauren ♡

    2.5 STARS ☆ I usually am captivated with Tijan's book. From my first read — Ryan's Bed, Tijan knew how to pull on my emotion strings. But this book fell flat to me, unfortunately. I was HOOKED when it was title I Mean, It's Cool in the anthology book & I read the prologue for it. Brief story plot The book kicks off with Cheyenne (h) in her last year of high school, then the book jumps to present-day (4 years post-college). Within that time, we find out that she has something and has been misdiagno 2.5 STARS ☆ I usually am captivated with Tijan's book. From my first read — Ryan's Bed, Tijan knew how to pull on my emotion strings. But this book fell flat to me, unfortunately. I was HOOKED when it was title I Mean, It's Cool in the anthology book & I read the prologue for it. Brief story plot The book kicks off with Cheyenne (h) in her last year of high school, then the book jumps to present-day (4 years post-college). Within that time, we find out that she has something and has been misdiagnosed A LOT, her mother OD, she moved to her uncle's house because her father didn't want nothing to do with her, she went to college on her dad's dime as part of her agreement living with her uncle, and she currently works for a non-profit. Since high school, Cheyenne has found better ways to cope with stressors in her life. She is not under the delusion she is in love with Cut (H)/he wants her; yet, she still has a crush on him. Years go by, they meet at an event and hook up and off we go into an insta-love and it just well.. the book went downhill fast... I almost did not finish the book x4. I kept going back and forth on whether to read it or call it quits & not finish it. Basically, mama didn't raise no quitter and something told me to keep going, so here we are. Perseverance, Mama Said Knock You Out by LL Cool J, & mild sighing was required for reading this book. Anyways, ✷POSSIBLE SPOILERS AHEAD✷ MAIN CHARACTERS — Cheyenne (h) Although she had feelings for Cut, she ran away from them and wanted to scare him off as she believed she could not be loved. Often, she self-stigmatized. She gave into the stigmatizing judgment and often viewed herself as the label not as a human being. I felt a big takeaway from Cheyenne's character was how stigma surrounding mental effects individuals. She believed the judgment, pushed others away, and let the label define her at times. But with the good support system, she had she worked through that and accepted the love from Cut. Overall, a central theme of this book was see the person, not the illness. — Cut (H) Honestly, his character for a main hero stayed rather superficial to me. Things we know about Cut: ✧ Cheyenne and Cut slept together 6 times the first time they hooked up (i know this because they kept repeating this information, MULTIPLE TIMES) ✧ He doesn't date; yet, he felt something fierce for Cheyenne right away ✧ Seems to have a good fam even though they are only seen twice in the book ✧ f*cking Chad is his boy ✧ He loves hockey and prefers his image to maintain just about how he plays ✧ He is a top-notch NHL player and can play hella aggressive at times Other than that, there was nothing memorable or distinguishable about his character that I can think of. Like seriously... who are you!? I wish his character was developed more. — Cheyenne's family ✧ Donna (Cheyenne's mom): Even though she was only ever mentioned (there was no interactions scenes between any characters with her. Only telling, no showing), she was a huge catalyst that changed Cheyenne's life. She died; yet, she still played such a significant role in changing her. ✧ Deek (Cheyenne's dad): I literally wanted to punch him on multiple occasions. Even though he barely interacted with his daughter, he kept pulling the strings to control who interacted with her. Like straight up, I wanted to rumble him for his actions. He was just so narrow-minded and treated her like shit because he assumed she would act a certain way due to her upbringing. ✧ F*cking Chad: He was Cut's best friend. He KNEW how Cut felt about her and still treated her like shit. He believed Deek and kept judging her when he never even knew anything about his step-sister. ✧ Natalie (Chad & Hunter mom/her dad's ex): She had no backbone whatsoever. She let Deek control her and the situation with Cheyenne. It took her YEARS to apologize and she barely made an effort to let Cheyenne see Hunter. ✧ Hunter: SAVING GRACE TO THIS SHITTY FAMILY. I truly adored their Koala sister/brother relationship so much. It was really sweet. Although I was here for the family drama, it sorta fell flat to me. Chad was such a dick to her and his friendship was strained with Cut after how he treated her. But he just disappeared and he wasn't even mentioned at all in the epilogue. WHERE DID YOU GO BRO!? Lastly, I didn't even find what the sperm donor did interesting, I felt that twist was OTT and I was hoping more of a confrontation between Cheyenne and him than that actual turn of events with him. Things I DID like: ↠ Sasha/Melanie/Cheyenne friendship: They always had each other back and I truly enjoyed their friendship ↠ Sasha + Chad: I was here for that drama. He did deserve those pinches like he was being a fuckboy. I wanted more from them as I found their relationship angsty as hell & actually more interesting than Cheyenne & Cut's relationship. These two together was a big part of the story then BAM she is with Hendrix and there was no reaction from Chad. Maybe Chad will have his own book or Sasha will and we will see what happened all there... if not it lacked some serious development. ↠ Cheyenne's hockey seat buddies: The older couple warmed my heart. I found their relationship wholesome Things I did NOT like: Alexa please play Meds by Placebo *Baby, did you forget to take your meds?* ↠ It is suggested that Cheyenne has social anxiety disorder but her diagnoses are never mentioned in this book. However, how she manages her everyday life with mental illness is discussed, greatly. So, medication management was heavily discussed with Cheyenne's character. I felt even this book focused on her struggles with medication than her developing love with Cut. I'm all for advocating for mental health awareness. I just felt that other coping strategies should of been focused on as well. Medication is a key role in treatment for mental illness, but other strategies are integrated to optimize the best treatment for someone with mental illness. I wish coping strategies were explored a little more with her character rather than always focusing on Cheyenne taking or missing her meds. ↠ Romance trope: My favorite trope I loathe insta love/lust was how it went in the beginning from Cut's side. ⤷ "I wanted to tug her out of here, take her home, and lay claim so she’d never want to feel another guy inside her." (9% into the book y'all) But after their initial interaction, the love took a backseat. A lot of the material focused more on secondary characters plotlines and just felt like fillers until about ~30% into the book. Basically, I did not feel the connection between these two and felt the love came out of nowhere. Overall~ I wish I loved this book more as I was really excited to read it. It was ehh, alright read for me!

  22. 4 out of 5

    Carol (StarAngel's Reviews) Allen

    5 Stars This was amazing! I read this from beginning to end without putting it down...that's how invested I was in Cheyenne and Cut's story. These two were awe inspiring, especially Cheyenne's character. She was my own personal hero and I felt so connected with her...I cried with her, I laughed with her, and I all and out loved her. This author and the explanation of Cheyenne's mental illness was amazing (I'm using that word alot) The description was so alive that I felt as if I was in her mind a 5 Stars This was amazing! I read this from beginning to end without putting it down...that's how invested I was in Cheyenne and Cut's story. These two were awe inspiring, especially Cheyenne's character. She was my own personal hero and I felt so connected with her...I cried with her, I laughed with her, and I all and out loved her. This author and the explanation of Cheyenne's mental illness was amazing (I'm using that word alot) The description was so alive that I felt as if I was in her mind and body when she was experiencing her attacks. Amazing!

  23. 4 out of 5

    ♂️Must Have Book Boyfriends ♂️

    OHMYGOD YOU GUYS! I DEFREAKINVOURED this book!! LIKE.... THE HERO WAS EVERYTHING. THE HEROINE WAS EVERYTHING. THE GIRL GANG. EVERY. FREAKING. THING. AND THE FEEEELS!!!! THE. FEELS!!! I couldn't put this book down! Just when I thought I knew where the story was going or maybe how a Cut would react to something, he just took my breath away. I could cry just thinking about how AMAZING he is!!!! I can't get over this book boyfriend or book girlfriend ever. They have to be one of my fave couples this OHMYGOD YOU GUYS! I DEFREAKINVOURED this book!! LIKE.... THE HERO WAS EVERYTHING. THE HEROINE WAS EVERYTHING. THE GIRL GANG. EVERY. FREAKING. THING. AND THE FEEEELS!!!! THE. FEELS!!! I couldn't put this book down! Just when I thought I knew where the story was going or maybe how a Cut would react to something, he just took my breath away. I could cry just thinking about how AMAZING he is!!!! I can't get over this book boyfriend or book girlfriend ever. They have to be one of my fave couples this year! Gahhhhhh!!!!! I want to re-read RIGHT NOW. And I can honestly say, I've never read a love story like this. SO REFRESHING!!!!! #MUSTHAVEBookBoyfriend #MustHaveCutlerRyder #TOPREADOF2020 #TheNotOutcast #Hockey #AllTheFeels THE NOT-OUTCAST is live and available in Kindle Unlimited! AMAZON: https://amzn.to/3mVgB7C

  24. 4 out of 5

    Somia

    I loved the premise of this but I struggled to finish, the book and the way in which the characters were depicted and the writing just didn't work for me. No matter how hard I tried I couldn't make myself sink into the read and get lost in the pages and characters - not even a smidge. Potential Triggers: (view spoiler)[Child neglect and emotional abuse. Reference to drug addiction, blackmail, mental health and overdosing. (hide spoiler)] Acquired via KU. I loved the premise of this but I struggled to finish, the book and the way in which the characters were depicted and the writing just didn't work for me. No matter how hard I tried I couldn't make myself sink into the read and get lost in the pages and characters - not even a smidge. Potential Triggers: (view spoiler)[Child neglect and emotional abuse. Reference to drug addiction, blackmail, mental health and overdosing. (hide spoiler)] Acquired via KU.

  25. 4 out of 5

    Sophie "Beware Of The Reader"

    4,5 stars « This book was just so different from my normal, so I really and truly hoped that the reader loved it as well. “ Well it seems that I do love Tijan’s books that are different from her “normal” as this one gave me some vibe of Ryan’s Bed, another one that I loved! I don’t mean the stories of characters are alike, far from it. What I mean is that there is a deep, moving and serious tone in this story. The female character is mentally struggling and the male character is what I would call “ 4,5 stars « This book was just so different from my normal, so I really and truly hoped that the reader loved it as well. “ Well it seems that I do love Tijan’s books that are different from her “normal” as this one gave me some vibe of Ryan’s Bed, another one that I loved! I don’t mean the stories of characters are alike, far from it. What I mean is that there is a deep, moving and serious tone in this story. The female character is mentally struggling and the male character is what I would call “perfect boyfriend material” and frankly is so supportive I’d introduce my daughter to him in a heartbeat! For me to love a book I need to connect with the characters, to be interested by the story arc and to have just the right pacing. If you add great sidekicks and struggling characters that’s even better. You have all that in The Not-Outcast plus a topic that made me reconsider my opinion on people. We open with Cheyenne being in high school, living with her dad for a period of time with her step family. What we discover is a really spaced out girl, with wandering thoughts and who has been raised by a junkie for a mom. She has known neglect, she has known hunger and has already been homeless for days or weeks. Fast forward and the plot will focus on the “now”, ten years later when Cheyenne is in her late twenties. Cheyenne is one of the strongest characters I have read these last months. She had been misdiagnosed appearing “crazy” to many and had to overcome incredibly tragic circumstances all her life. For her to function properly, she has to take her meds religiously, avoid alcohol, do meditation, yoga and cardio. If she skips that regimen, her brain will be overflowed by any stimulus and she will spiral down, spacing out, having anxiety etc. Basically, Cheyenne’s brain was her enemy. Can you imagine living every single day of your life knowing that your brain can turn on you? There was an excerpt that had me in tears because Cheyenne had so much love to give but knowing her “condition”, she wanted to spare others the burden she could be. ““With my stuff, a person goes through a situation where they really question things at a deeper level. Like, would it be fair to bring someone else in on the struggle you endure every day? If you did, was it fair to bring a child into the world who had a mother with the struggles I had? On the surface, she would seem to be just a mom who’s distracted or disorganized. But follow down the line, and it’s a mom who’s not listening to you. It’s a mom who forgets to pick you up. It’s a mom who forgot to pay your meal plan for a year, for the second year, for a third year. It’s a mom who forgets to pick you up not once, but twice, three, four, five… The intent is there. The love is always there, but the struggles are there, and they are often greater than the whole, and they can chip away at a person, at a child, at a husband, at a wife. If something gets chipped away at enough, holes get created and those holes get bigger and bigger over the years.” THAT! That excerpt really broke me. It really hammered the idea in my brain about what Cheyenne had to go through. And I wanted to SCREAM at the unfairness! Not only did Cheyenne suffer from that but her brain “malfunctioned” because she was the daughter of an addict. We don’t often speak of babies born from addict parents but they suffer sever consequences. And if he mother’s neglect wasn’t enough, Cheyenne also had been treated abjectly by her father , her step mother and her step brother. They really treated her like a criminal. Like a disease. Something dirty. And Cheyenne, you would think she resented and hated them but no! No, Cheyenne was just so loving, so caring, choosing not to dwell on the past but focus on bright moment that I just was in awe. Sorry I know that I take a long time talking or rather writing about her but that’s because she deserves it. Now this is Tijan so there is a love story somewhere. Enter our hero: Cut or Cutler. NHL superstar, hot, smart and so kind. Some hate the all alpha protective and insta love/lust stories but I DIG THESE! And frankly, Cut exceeded all my expectations. I loved how he cared for Cheyenne. How he protected her. How he tried to really “get it”, get what it was to be her and live with that brain. From the first moment, he staked his claim on her and that’s my favorite stories. That won’t be smooth sailing of course and I was truly riveted to my Kindle as I wanted to know what would happen. Add to the mix an amazing friendship with Cheyenne’s two besties Sacha and Melody and you should have an idea why I loved that book so much. Recommend it? Absolutely!

  26. 5 out of 5

    Ria | Abstract ♥ Books

    ALL MY REVIEWS CAN BE FOUND ON MY BLOG: ABSTRACT BOOKS "Not-An-Outcast"is a Standalone by the best selling author Tijan. Told in dual perspectives , get ready to meet Cut Ryder and Cheyenne!! There is no one , absolutely no one who canatch this quirky sense of humour that this author's books have!!! She makes me go crazy with laughter , makes me swoon and makes me cry all in one chapter! I really don't how how she manages to do it , but the way she writes and those phrases of hers just make her ALL MY REVIEWS CAN BE FOUND ON MY BLOG: ABSTRACT BOOKS "Not-An-Outcast"is a Standalone by the best selling author Tijan. Told in dual perspectives , get ready to meet Cut Ryder and Cheyenne!! There is no one , absolutely no one who canatch this quirky sense of humour that this author's books have!!! She makes me go crazy with laughter , makes me swoon and makes me cry all in one chapter! I really don't how how she manages to do it , but the way she writes and those phrases of hers just make her books one of the top contemporary Romances for me! Cheyenne has never had an easy childhood. Her mother was a junkie and she spent most of her childhood locked out of her house and on the streets. So when she is sent to live with her father ,she thinks that things will be better for her. But that is not the case. People treat her like a criminal. The only bright spot in her life is her brother's best friend. Cut Ryder is an enigma at school. He is a literal star and everyone is vying for his attention. Cheyenne fell in love with him the moment she saw him for the first time . But she never found the courage to tell him so. For years she was in love him and he didn't even know that she existed. That is until they got their chance. Cut Ryder was a perfectionist. Or that was all everyone thought. That is until he saw the girl with the most beautiful eyes ever. He knew that she was his at one glance. And there was no way that she was running away from him. The only problem was that he didn't know that she was his best friend's step sister too. Things were sure going to get very complicated. The characters of this book were amazing and don't even get me started on the friendship these characters had!!! Cheyenne and her girls were legit best friend goals and I laughed so hard at their chats and activities. The way they Interacted and supported each other had tears springing to my eyes and what I wouldn't give to have a bond like that in my life!! I really hope that Tijan blesses us with the story of other characters too be because they surely caught my eye and there is no way I am missing their book is it comes live!! A definite recommendation to all the contemporary Romance lovers out there who would love themes like. Second chance Romance , traumatic childhood and soulmates!! Instagram | Facebook | Twitter | Pinterest | Bookbub | My Blog

  27. 4 out of 5

    BLuvsBooks

    Unique and Captivating. I have been obsessed with this story since Tijan included a sneak peak of this book in an anthology and she gave me more than I could have imagined. As with her other stories, I inhaled this new read. “Recognize the chaos. Know there’ll be chaos. Look straight and try to find your tunnel.” I loved how we got to really see and feel how Cheyenne is coping with her mental health without labeling exactly what it is. It allows for such a humanizing experience as a reader. And a Unique and Captivating. I have been obsessed with this story since Tijan included a sneak peak of this book in an anthology and she gave me more than I could have imagined. As with her other stories, I inhaled this new read. “Recognize the chaos. Know there’ll be chaos. Look straight and try to find your tunnel.” I loved how we got to really see and feel how Cheyenne is coping with her mental health without labeling exactly what it is. It allows for such a humanizing experience as a reader. And at the same time we get to see the fun, quirky, ambitious, smart, and loyal person she is. Cut the NHL hockey star is a perfect match for Cheyenne. He is decisive, strong, safe, caring and doesn’t just accept her but wants her to be comfortable with who she is and has no judgements. And the side characters are amazing! Cheyenne has two girlfriends that are very loyal and funny. She also has some interesting co- workers and family as does Cut - which makes for the drama and angst that only TIJAN can do. How does TIJAN keep writing my favorite stories and characters? I don’t know but Im so thankful for her artistry and hope she continues for a very long time. NA. Sports. Dual POV. HEA Ducking Chad.

  28. 4 out of 5

    nikita

    i always look forward to tijan’s books but this one felt more of a woman’s fiction to me. and i was inclined to seeing them falling in love so that’s why this insta love this from Cut’s side didn’t gel with me. but dude, DUDE!! (read the book and you’ll get the reference) i loved the heroine <3 like seriously DUDEE

  29. 4 out of 5

    NiCoLeTa E. {Addicted To Books}

    ***5 "Dude!!!" stars*** AVAILABLE NOW “Recognize the chaos. Know there’ll be chaos. Look straight and try to find your tunnel.” DUDEEEEEEEEEEEEE!!!!! This book was sooo amazing that the words is still doesn't form in my brain of what I want to tell you about this story.... For once again, Tijan amazed me and she got under my skin with a very unique story that it's gonna take a while to get out of my head!!! Dudeee!!! You are so talented and I adore reading your stories!!! "People didn't l ***5 "Dude!!!" stars*** AVAILABLE NOW “Recognize the chaos. Know there’ll be chaos. Look straight and try to find your tunnel.” DUDEEEEEEEEEEEEE!!!!! This book was sooo amazing that the words is still doesn't form in my brain of what I want to tell you about this story.... For once again, Tijan amazed me and she got under my skin with a very unique story that it's gonna take a while to get out of my head!!! Dudeee!!! You are so talented and I adore reading your stories!!! "People didn't like what they couldn't understand. It scared them. They couldn't understand me." Our heroine, Cheyenne was a unique creature and I just wanted to hug and shelter her forever!!! She hadn't an easy life and her teen years kind of sucked... She was suffering of an hyperactive brain (a mental issue in a way) and it was so hard of her to focus on everything around her... Cut was the only person who could penetrate the mist of her brain and he was the love of her life... What a pity that he didn't even know that she was existing!!! "I have a really hungry brain." I knew it wouldn't make any sense to him, but I'd long given up hope that some people would understand. Some did. Most didn't." Several years forward and Cheyenne's life is in a great path... Her medications are making life easier, even though there are some slips from time to time... Cheyenne has built a stellar job that she adores and she has amazing friends that are standing by her side no matter what. Life is good and then, one message, a big deal party and her long lost dream is becaming a reality... Cutler Ryder is stepping into her life and everything seems more frightening than before... "He had the power to shatter me. A girl like me, we took that seriously. He could send me right back to who I'd been when I had an entire delusional relationship with him in my head." Cut was a big deal on the hockey field... He was this huge hockey player and he was living and breathing hockey for almost all of his life... So it is really strange his reaction to Cheyenne from the very first moment that he is laying his eyes on her... A primal instict inside of him is screaming MINE and he can not ignore that voice inside of him... What he didn't know is that Cheyenne is connecting with him in a sort of way since his best friend is her ex stepbrother... The crazy thing is that he didn't even known her back then. But now, he is determined to learn more of her and to built something great with her... If she just let him!!! "My Cheyenne. Was this fast? Yes. Hell yes. Was there stuff I needed to unravel? Fuck yes. Was I walking? Not a chance." I loved Cheyenne very much... Yes, her thoughts were always all over the place, but I was really enjoying seeing how her brain was working... Yes, it was kind of sad how the others were seeing her, but I really adored her craziness!!! Seriously, her girls weren't having health issues and still... they were so similar!!! I loved how deeply she was loving people and how loyal she was to them... I loved how spontaneous she were and I loved how she was trying to protect the others around her, even from herself... She was an amazing creature!!! End of the story. "I couldn't grapple with the reality that he liked me. That just didn't make sense to me. Or even make sense to the universe." "Want to know what I was diagnose with?" He leaned forward, resting his elbows on the table. "What are you doing? Telling me all of this?" I neaned forward, too. "Saving you." My eyes flicked to the door. "Leave. Run. Go away." Cut was a dreamy guy!!! For real!!! And I don't even mean that for his status or gorgeous appearance... He had a golden heart and it showed in here!!!! He was another amazing creature who from the first moment recognized something unique in the woman that he was falling!!! He couldn't always understand, but he was so open and supportive and I loved him for that ability of his!!! He fell in love blindly with Cheyenne and he never stopped fighting for her, even against on the man he thought a brother... "Chad doesn't like me." "Chad doesn't know you." "You don't know me." "I want to know you." “I love you because you have every reason to be angry at the world, and you’re not. You wake up smiling and you stay smiling. You’d choose laughter over anything, all day and every day.” These two were pretty amazing together and I loved their story very much... Of course in here there were persons that were good and persons that they don't even worth my time mentioning them. So I will focus only to the rest of the Tomcats, Sasha and Melanie... They were the bestest friends that a woman could wish for... I just wish I had someone like them in my life!!! Also Koala Boy was another beautiful person!!!! And Hunter!!! Thank you, Tijan for this wonderful ride!!! In a way, you put balm in my soul and thank you for that!!! Oh!!! And something last... FUCKING CHAD!!! Ughhh! "I never felt like an outcast back then, but I was. I was one back then, but I didn't feel it. I'm not one now, so why do I feel like I am?" **I received an ARC for the exchange of an honest review**

  30. 5 out of 5

    Shannie's ⭐️Lookin' 4 My Next BBF⭐️

    5 Mission Possible Stars Once again Ms Tijan has exceeded way beyond my expectations for a book!! All the feels were had!! This book had soooooooo much depth to the characters and I absolutely fell in love with Cheyenne & Cut!! Cut is definitely top book boyfriend material, peeps!! The secondary characters moved this story to an entirely different level of awesomeness!! If you haven’t read The Not-Outcast you are seriously missing out!!

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